Lucifer Bingo

Challenge #7

LIST THREE (or more) THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF. They don’t have to be your favorite things, just things that you think are good. Feel free to expand as much or as little as you want.

Thanks! I hate it!

Okay, if this were like five years ago I literally would not be able to do this. But you know what? I'm turning 40 this year and I am pretty fucking great. Other people might not see that, but who cares because I know it as a truth.

So. First thing: I am great at writing banter. I love that I am great at writing banter. Short, long, whatever. Look at this shit: [link to GYWO comment], [link to another GYWO comment] [realizing no one can see those links if they're not also doing GYWO]

( Okay fine, have two examples under here. )

Second thing I like about myself: I'm a fucking amazing knitter. You want it, I can knit it. Cables, lace, whatever.

( Have a selection of my projects over the years )

Third thing: my body is pretty great. It's doing it's best, and even though it's best is sometimes not great, I still love it. I'm reaching the point where I'm not healing from injuries as well, but that's okay too because again, it's doing its best. So, yeah. No pictures or anything for this one.

Challenge #5

In your own space, create a list of at least three things you'd love to receive, a wishlist of sorts. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it and include a link to your wishlist if you feel comfortable doing so.

Oh boy oh boy, a wishlist! I am so good at those! My brain does not immediately go blank when asked to compose one!

Okay, a selfish thing I want: art for each chapter of my & my friend's Lucifer hitman!au. I'm slowly working on commissioning it, and I've got I think three? Four? Chapters done. But slowly is the key word here and man is it expensive to commission art and like. Actually pay the artist fairly!

A less selfish wish: More! Debris! Fic! Give me more Debris fic! Long fic! Plotty fic! I am d e s p e r a t e for more Debris fic, especially fic that continues the story. Give me all the post-canon fic in the world. I just. I loved that show so much. The story of the penguin and the soldier makes me insane. I forget about the back half of the season all the time because that two-parter felt like a finale. I am convinced the episodes are out of order and if I just watch it enough times I can put them in an order that makes the developing relationship between Bryan and Finola make sense. I start rewatching every time I get high because that is all my high brain thinks about. It aired in March 2021 and I am still obsessed, almost five years later. Please god someone write me fic.

A third thing. Hmmm. I would like fandom to go back to feeling more interactive. It feels like before AO3 kudos became a thing, and we didn't have hit counters, that more people commented on fic even if they were just tiny short comments. It feels like people replied to day-in-the-life posts/tweets/whatever more. It feels like there were more conversations and less shouting into the void, regardless of whether it was you as the OP or you replying to someone else.

And I'm using "feels" deliberately here because it probably isn't true!! It probably isn't true. Fandom is bigger than ever, so it really can't be true, I don't think. But it sure does feel true! And, in the end, that is what is important to me. Feelings may not be facts but I think in lowstakes situations like this it's okay if they are.

Challenge #3: Write a love letter to fandom. It might be to fandom in general, to a particular fandom, favourite character, anything at all.

I! Am! So! Behind!

Okay this is probably more a love-letter to having friends than it is to fandom as a whole because, uh, you know how some large percentage of anything is garbage? That is true about fandom-as-a-whole, too.

But this is not about that. This is about finding your people.

It is (unfortunately?) not an exaggeration to say that without fandom, I would have like. No friends. I have met every single friend I have through fandom in one way or another. I am, after all, essentially a recluse in real life. And, I mean, once you're out of school how do you even make friends as an adult? Who knows.

(I mean, you leave the house and do things with groups of strangers, and then sometimes strangers turn into friends. But I digress.)

This is, perhaps, curmudgeonly of me, but I find great swathes of fandom intensely annoying and/or angry-making. What can I say! People have wrong opinions and put them out there on the internet for everyone to see!

The cool thing about having friends, though, is you can use them to curate your experience. Between blocking at the drop of a hat and mostly only following friends, I have gone from an Angry Youth, getting all het up about things, to a Normal Emotions Adult, who does not see things to get het up at.

The other cool as shit thing about friends is that you can convince them to join your fandoms and then you don't have to interact with people outside of your friend gr-

Oh my god. Am I also a recluse online??? Fuck. What the fuck. I need to think about this. Post aborted for today. wtf.